I have supported Spurs for close to 35 years and will continue to do so for the rest of my life. To cease supporting Spurs would be unthinkable.
I was not born in Tottenham so I did not possess local affinity nor inherit a family legacy. I did not start off supporting Spurs because we won things. As those around me flocked to United and Liverpool and latterly Arsenal, Chelsea & City, I have always remained true to Tottenham. As a young child growing up in an age before the Internet with only a black & white television, I did not know of our "glory glory" history, our rivalries or the Double Winners. I started supporting Spurs purely & simply because of Hoddle. During my childhood & early teens, it was the odd snippet on Match of the Day and Shoot! that brought me closer and closer to this club.
My favourite players (like most of us, I suspect) have always been the ones with flair; Hoddle, Waddle, Gascoigne & Ginola. For me, it wasn't entirely about winning or points per game ratios, statistics etc. it has and always will be largely about being entertained. If we won, I would be ecstatic, if we lost, depressed (and occasionally mildly suicidal, particularly in the mid-90's) but the excitement of watching our flair players conjure those rare magical moments was what continued to satiate me. That and a total lack of expectation of winning. After all, only one year ended in "1" every decade.
As the years progress and I grow ever closer to my end, I admit that I have grown weary of losing and dearly wish to see my beloved Spurs win a major trophy again. In spite of the enormous difficulty of doing so, particularly with the amount of money being thrown about by some of our competitors, our ascent from mid-table mediocrity of late has nevertheless increased my expectations of the club. For all the jokes about Arsene Wenger, in truth, I have always cast an envious eye towards the woolwich lot and what his teams have achieved and the manner in which they play. Consequently, I have always yearned for a young'ish' manager who had a stylish philosophy and was willing to commit to building a dynasty that would one day outplay Arsenal consistently and maybe, possibly, ultimately, win things with style and flourish.
I am well and truly behind AVB and was genuinely excited by his appointment. I believe and still do that he is our "Chosen One". Prior to this, I had only greeted Hoddle's appointment with equal fervour; prodigal son and all that.
However, through the progress charted by AVB, without wishing to apportion any blame, I believe that our football has largely been dour & uninspiring, on occasion turgid even. Although we sit in a relatively strong position with a great squad, watching Spurs has been difficult.
I enjoy Spurs winning, immensely, it ****ing makes my week. I hate losing and despair every time we do so. I am excited that we are only 3 points from the summit (apparently whilst still not hitting our stride & even if it is early doors). But every so often, the child deep within me cries out for a Hoddle or a Gascoigne or a Ginola moment and reminds me why I began this journey in the first place.
Patience is a virtue.
Make Spurs your own Andre and do it with style...