DubaiSpur
Ian Walker
Primarily it's a personal question. Who are you? What kind of person you are?
Secondly it's about your relationship with the club. D'you want your club to sell it's soul, prostitute itself to the top? Fast track my emotional needs being met. Then feel a bit hollow? It might be 'if you can't beat them join them' BUT there's no going back if you do.
Personally I'd never ever want it. Life ain't easy but I still believe you can win things with a 'normal' model.
This needs a long response. Re: Arsenal, United and Liverpool, I think it's telling that only the three largest clubs in England can compete in this manner, and that's with Arse providing 400m-odd of owner financing to Arteta and Edu over the past few years - hardly sustainable, as you say. That in itself is an indication of the arms race the Prem has become - and while these three clubs can 'compete', City have won, what, 4 of the last 5 titles, and how many of the last few CCs? It's only the Prem's marketing that keeps it from looking like a one-team league at this point.
On the backing of managers being the difference, agreed. They are to my mind the biggest difference makers now that every team in the league has players at a high level. It's why I still feel bitter that we ended our journey with Poch like we did - that story had longer to go, new cycles to build and I hope it resumes at some point.
On the kind of person I am and my relationship with the club, it's weird that they are polar opposites. In life, my hobbies tend to center on meditation and self-reflection - hiking, travelling, running. And I've gotten a lot better at recognizing that life is hard and it's nice to help others get through it, having needed help myself to get through some hard times.
But the person I am now is not the kid I was when I started following Spurs 20-odd years ago. And that scrawny, impulsive kid yearning for glory still drives my emotional impulses on Tottenham today, in a way that almost nothing else does. I cling to that because of my fear that if I lost it, nothing would keep me connected to this club anymore, since I have grown to largely dislike the increasingly corrupt and hypocritical game outside of Spurs.
The thing that keeps me from going all in on Qatar as a route to fulfilling my dreams of better days is the worry that doing so just brings the blood-stained hypocrisy of the wider game into Spurs, and I am unsure how I would deal with that. Hence I'm conflicted. But otherwise, the happiness I had as a kid, running barefoot down sandy streets in 2008 as we won the CC...I'd like to see that again before I die. Reaching the CL final came close, as I left work and strolled home down rainy streets singing at the top of my voice to the amusement of passers by - but otherwise, nothing under the 20 long years of ENIC has quite compared to that day, and the thing that saddens me is that it's getting less likely by the day that we ever experience that collective joy again. As someone once put it, we're football's eternal bridesmaids - always in the background of the game's great moments, slumping to our knees in despair as the happiness goes to someone else.