I was financially and emotionally rinsed by England back in the 90s and 00s to the point that I divorced them the day McClaren arrived. I'd then watch tournament s because I like football but didn't bat an eyelid if England lost.
I have never divorced Tottenham (and never will) and always want what is best for us. If that means I'm not really interested in our players playing internationals, because it may hinder us in some way, then so be it. Sorry if that's ''stupid'.
FWIW that's the first England game I've watched, outside of tournaments, for a long time (nasty sore throat...laid up on sofa..didn't even realise it was on tbh), as I said above I like Southgate and his approach and that team is light years ahead in terms of watchability (?) than the dross from yesteryear.